| Grey would be the color, if I had a heart. |
[12 Mar 2007|10:06am] |
ive been up since last thursday. and im starting to scare myself.
well I did it again... I set myself up just to fall right back downnnnnn downnnnn dowwnnnnnnn again... Ernesto says hes gonna come over and spend my day off with me and then he calls back two hours later and says he cant anymore cuz he has no gas. So Im fucking pissed off and Im out of Ice and money and men. But thats what I get for being an idiot and believing him AGAIN...GOD. Why am I such a fool for him, he's not that cute or much of a promise keeper[like my dad]which I FUCKING HATE. But I love him, I cant get enough of his pain and torture. seriously Im such a freak. I started MY spring break a day early! lmao if you couldnt tell. I need him I love him Im nothing without him and his distruction in my life. I would do anything to be with him and I dont even know why. FUCK LOVE. FUCKER. but anyways .... Im gonna go now bcuz im all pissy and i know that it's all my fucking fault becuz i dont listen to my head only my heart but i cant help it. if it means years of pain and frustration and dissappointment Ill go through it if that means I can have him. so far its been over two years now and If I dont have him by next summer it's time for a NEW GAME PLAN .... on the count of three everyone overdose.
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[03 Mar 2007|04:10pm] |
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me emileigh and stefanny are about to go SHOPPING!! lol awesome
md=AMERICA
emileigh=TEXAS
stefffff=HOUSTON
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| LUCY LOVE |
[22 Jul 2006|10:15pm] |
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stefanny and allison are trying to take myspace pictures with lucy with allisons phone. lmao, poor poor lucious :( the things we put her furry ass through. i wuv hers. <3 times a million
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| gay nigga |
[14 Jul 2006|12:14am] |
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big moe "i was at the club one night" |
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tonight was pretty tight, chilllin with the whole fucking crew again at michelles blowin a blunt and planning out tomorrow, fucking finally im gonna get some bars FINALLLLY
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[11 Jul 2006|07:08pm] |
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"you allready know" hawk |
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juss chillin with shmallison.
being chill listening to HAWK.
deciding what screw song to put on gayspace.
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| YES YES YES YES YES!!! |
[03 Jun 2006|03:07pm] |
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YESSSSSS, NINE INCH NAILS IS TOMORROW!!! HELLS YEAH, ohh yeah annnnd EMILY IS BOUTA COME OVER!!! EXCITMENT!!!!
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| allison is soo kewl |
[18 May 2006|08:41pm] |
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i love allison and her carazzy shananagins with me every night in the streets on ACID!! well gotta go rest up for more LSD F-U-N with alli-son and steff. oh yeah spray paint is the shitt.
peace love and hahaha allison fucked up her phone and fingernails with blue spraypaint hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha fucking ha
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| Who Took The Bomb? |
[20 Apr 2006|02:41pm] |
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wellll.. im at my dad's casa chillin with my little brother niko who is currently asleep on a pillow... he's soo tiny it's adorable it's incredible! i luff him. im waiting for my step mom to come home from this thing where they flush out your colin...ewwwwww!! and my dad to come home from an AA meeting while i listen to LUDACRIS and NELLY FURTADO ANd Le Tigre!! yeahh im GAY but i dont give a single fuck!! oh yeah and im watching CLUELESS in which brittany murphey is so cluelessy adorable i can not even stand it .. seriously. well im gonna go do something equally gay besides up
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| TEAR YOU APART |
[04 Apr 2006|03:57pm] |
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she wants revenge |
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Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
And the whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind
Late night, in passing, metioned it flip to her
bestfriend, it's no thing, maybe it slipped
but the slip turns to terror and the crush to like
when she walked in he froze up, leaves it to fright
Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days
It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it'd passed
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare
They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last
Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her
I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to fucking tear you apart
[3x]
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| SICK |
[04 Apr 2006|03:43pm] |
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This is so ridiculous it's scary.
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| candy flippin |
[03 Apr 2006|01:59am] |
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me and emileigh candy flipped on friday and it was the shitt!!!!!! yesterday we smoked with stefanny and roel and today we went swimming and smmoked a bleazy on the wayy; it was so tight. now we just finnished watching party monster{=l o v fuckin e} and now were waiting for these face mask things to dry. this weekend was so fucking awesummmmm it is unbeleivable how FUCKED UP we were friday night. oh my gawd my boy friend was scaring us sooo bad on friday night "WATERRR!!!" "strawwberries!!!" -roy "get the fuck away from me fool!!you can't have any of my WATERRR!!" -emileigh "eww you're a FUCKIN MUTANT!!!"-mdizzle ahhhh good times shared by us all.
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[15 Mar 2006|02:59pm] |
Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel lift me up
and i open bloodshot eyes into fluorescent white
they flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and i am gone
now i lay here owing my life to a stranger
and i realize that empty words are not enough
i'm left here with the question of just
what have i to show except the promises i never kept?
i lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets
i hope that i will never let you down
i know that this can be more than just flashing lights and sound
look around and you'll see that at times it feels like no one really cares
it gets me down but i'm still gonna try to do what's right, i know that there's
a difference between sleight of hand, and giving everything you have
there's a line drawn in the sand, i'm working up the will to cross it
rhetoric can't raise the dead
i'm sick of always talking when there's no change
i'm sick of empty words, let's lead and not follow
late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel steal me from the
greedy jaws of death and chance, and pull me in with steady hands
they've given me a second chance, the artist in the ambulance
can we pick you off the ground, more than flashing lights and sound
i love this song
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| im so incredibly bored |
[13 Mar 2006|06:53pm] |
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pointless survey :)
What's your favorite....
Beverage (non-alc) ? cherry coke
Beverage (alc) ? tequila!!
Color ? yellow
Food ? pizza
Item of clothing ? jackets
Meal of the day ? lunch
Feature on yourself ? eyes
Quality in a guy/girl ? hands
Phrase ? idk
Song ? too many but "juicy" by the notorious B.I.G
Musical Artist/Band ? soo many
Sport ? soccer or badmitton
Movie ? walk the the line or crash for right now
TV Show ? intervention or flavor of love!!!
Radio Station ? uhmmm 104 or 94.5
Type of Chocolate ? white
Eye Color ? blue/green/grey
Do you/Have you ever
Smoke ? constantly
Drink ? sometimes
Have any piercings ? yeah
Have any tatoos ? nope but i am getting one i think
Cheat on a boyfriend/girlfriend? once a loong time ago
Had sex ? no waay im a nun
Gone streaking ? what the....
Gone skinny dipping ? who in the great firey hot state of tejas hasn't
Been to Europe ? no but i wish
Been to an island ? yeah
Had stitches ? nope
Broken any bones ? no way josayyyy
Been stabbed/shot ? nope
Slept until after 12:00 ? almost every day
Stayed up all night ? i used to do that 24/7 but things had to change
Danced like a whore ? what other way do you dance
Hooked up with 2 people in one weekend ? yes
Turned down a dare ? yeah
Which friend....
Is the funniest ? uhmm stefanny or emileigh or allison or michelle or jacob or ect ect ect
Is the prettiest ? stefanny
Is the most handsome ? KEITHY no no just kidding ROEL
Is the loudest ? emileigh with out a doubt stefanny at night or when were trying to be quiet lol
Is the craziest ? all of us
Is the most shy ? uhmm idk
Is the most loving ? me or steffy
Is the most understanding ? me
Is the most boring ? none of us
Is the richest ? mmmichelle, well her family is
Is the most athletic ? stefanny with her raving and her pilates lol
Is the biggest sex icon ? allison definately, yup allison
Is the most wordly/cultured ? uhmm me or stefanny seeing as how were the only ones who have actually been to another actual continent wait no no no LOGAN
Do you look up to the most ? uhmm cant really say
Do you tell everything to ? stefanny. emileigh.allison.mmichelle.kristtal.
Has the best clothes? all of us
Has the best house ? meeeee cuz of my room
Would you ever....
Eat pizza with chocolate chips ? yeah
Kiss someone of the same sex ? yeah
Cheat on someone you love ? nope
Run away from home ? yeah
Lie to your parents ? hahaha
Lie to your boyfriend/girlfriend ? i try not to
Lie to your best friend ? naw
Give a homeless person money ? not unless it was for crack
Run from the police ? depends
Bungee jump ? yeah maybe
Sky dive ? no waay
Cross dress ? what the hell all the time
Be an exotic dancer ? of course
Walk out of a restaurant without paying ? yeah
Scuba dive ? yeah
Go rock climbing ? idk
Go spulunking (caving) ? i allready have but i have never heard that exact term
What do you think of when you hear....
Eminem ? family violence
Bologna ? my little sister
Hott ? jimmy fallon
Orange ? steffys hurr before we died it
Real world ? trishelle
Fuck ? Fornication Under Consent of the King
Jack ? daniels
Cucumber ? spas
Hip-Hop ? missy elliott and run dmc
Uniform ? unicorn
UniCORN ? yaaay i love unicorns ssoooo much
Rainbow ? pot of gold with leprechauns dancind around it with a blunt
Clown ? this book i used to have as a small child
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| super bad ace survey for all my bitches to read |
[13 Mar 2006|06:25pm] |
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MY LIFE BIOGRAPHY
Chapter 1: You
Intials: MAD
Middle name: avery
Sex: Female
Date of birth: february 2
Current location: screwstone, tejas
Height: 5'6
Hair length: medium/long
color: hot pink
Piercings: ears twice each
Chapter 2: The Background
Do you live with your parents? mom and step dad
Do you get along with your parents?: uhmmm, pretty much
Are you parents married/separated/divorced?: divorced
Do you have any siblings?: three
What pets do you have?: a cat
What are their name(s): lily
Chapter 3: Favorites
City:houston
Ice cream flavor: strawberry
Season: summer or fall
Clothing brand: i dont care
Shampoo/conditioner: herbal esscences
Old nickelodeon show: ren and stimpy
Color: yellow or red
Cheesy pick-up: idk
Flower: sunflowers
Chapter 4: Do You ...
Sing in the shower?: sometimes
Write memos on your hand?: yah
Believe in love? of course
Sleep on a certain side of the bed?:uhmm yeahg the side farthest from the wall
Think you're attractive?: ehh
Wear glasses or contacts?: naw
Have any weird pet peeves?: eating messy food and then licking you your fingers is soo gross, slurping jello ugghh
Chapter 5: Have You Ever ...
Broken a bone?: no
Had stitches?: no
Punched someone in the face?: yeah
Taken painkillers?: yeah
Gone SCUBA diving?: nope
Been stung by a jellyfish?: yess
Been stung by a bee?: ya
Thrown up in a restaurant?: does the parkinglot count? if so then mings downtown
Written a letter to Santa Claus?: ya lol
Sworn in front of your parents?:shit hell ass bitch cunt whore dick fuck no
Had detention?: yeah
Been sent to the principal's office?: yeah
Been called a bitch?: yeah
Been called a Hoe?: yeah
Met someone famous?: yeah lemmy from motohead
Played ding dong ditch? lol yaa
Chapter 6: Random
If you could take back one thing, what would it be? uhmm nothing
Do you prefer blonde hair or brown hair? depends
If you were on death row, what would your final request be? every drug in the world and 10 minutes alone with every person i love so i could say bye.
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| YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS HELLA TIGHT |
[17 Feb 2006|04:37pm] |
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HELLA TIGHT |
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me and allison are about to go to my uncle's cd release party at walters on washington and then it's off to louisiana for three long days of no sleeping or eating or anything of that nature!!!!! HELLA TIGHT. i dont know why but i feel like some of my friends have been treating me like a fucking door mat, something inside me just can't get happy 100 percent but im sure once i get downtown and ive done some good shit i'll feel better PLUS im with MISS ALLISON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i luffy luffy luff hurrr
because she's HELLA WICKED AWESUM FOR SURE peace out
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| I LOVE MY LIVEJOURNAL |
[01 Feb 2006|01:08pm] |
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SoOoooOOOoO IIIMMMM BBAAACCKKK!!! anyways, i pretty much quit meth, about 90percent, im in privet school and it kicks so much ass it's shoes are shitty..lol. and im bouta go with allison to sign her bitch ass up!!!oh yeah my birthday is tomorrow!!!!!!!!!HOLLA!!!!!!!
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[13 Jan 2006|07:22pm] |
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well, im trippin on acid tonite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!\
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i am so f ing cool
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